Years ago, when I was just a wee Apprentice Company member of the theatre where I work, an Alexander technique teacher spent five minutes with me and then told me that I "walked like an apology." When she said it, the other baby apprentice in the room and I both immediately started to cry. Recently, … Continue reading so, i signed up for another half-marathon, or: on not apologizing for our bodies
I celebrate myself, and sing myself, I don't hate myself today, and that is a big deal. Self-hatred is such a constant of my being that my therapist has to often remind me that it isn't a normal thing. Going back to bed after an hour of activity just because I can't deal with myself … Continue reading for walt, for robin, for kermit, for me
So, today is the 20th anniversary of the initial theatrical release of The Phantom Menace, and, like a lot of nerds, I find myself reflecting on what the movie means to me, if it's as bad as we all say, and on and on and on. I LOVED The Phantom Menace when I first saw it in … Continue reading happy birthday and thanks for everything, the phantom menace
When I was in grade school, my very sweet and wonderful and supportive teachers used to write things in my yearbook like: "I can't wait to see you onstage at the Oscars someday!" Which is a very kind thing to write in a theatre dork's yearbook. But I also kind of bought it, gang. I've … Continue reading i am probably never going to win an oscar, or why i loved thor in endgame so much
With the exception of organized high school athletics, I've always been at my happiest when I've been a member of a Team. Specifically, a Team with a Mission-- something that made us special, abnormal, transcendent even. The cast and crew of a play, the members of a club at a conference or convention, and a … Continue reading the shawarma scene: a “one marvelous scene” essay
My parents took me to Disney World for the first time when I was just shy of two years old. My favorite story from that trip is of when they bought a popcorn for us to "share." Yeah, right. I beckoned for the popcorn box, and, "Oh, how cute," my parents must have thought. The … Continue reading i ran a half-marathon: the fireworks spectacular epilogue
TEAM. THIS IS IT. I have one more training run tomorrow evening, and then the next time I lace up my sneakers, it'll be at 3 am outside of the Magic Kingdom. The Star Wars Rival Run Half Marathon is this Sunday! I've logged a lot of miles, shivering and sniffling and sweating and everything … Continue reading another rundisney list for ya, nerds!
After 2010's Alice in Wonderland, I considered myself pretty much done with regards to two categories: Tim Burton and live-action Disney remakes. Yeah, I caved and saw Big Eyes in 2014, but... eh. And, as I've written about before, I used to be a Tim Burton maniac. I was with Tim all the way, even … Continue reading in anticipation of dumbo, with love and something like hope
Good news, nerds! runDisney just published the Digital Event Guide for the Star Wars Rival Run Weekend. SOMETHING NEW TO MEMORIZE YAY. The fact that's the most deeply burned into my brain regarding logistics for the Sunday morning half marathon? The fact that runners are encouraged to be bright-eyed, bushy-tailed, and all-aboard official event transportation … Continue reading in which our intrepid heroine rambles on about theatre and running. again.
You can change your mind But you cannot change your heart Your heart knows what you're hiding Your heart knows where you are I was in about one of the darkest places mentally that I've ever been in the night that I saw Spider-Man: Turn Off the Dark on Broadway. First of all: oh, that's … Continue reading i still don’t know what “turn off the dark” means, though
We still don't know anything about my partner's grad school situation, and I'm living in a worry-bubble. If you know me in real life, you've probably noticed that I only ever talk about two things lately: worrying about grad school or training for my half-marathon. Obsessing over the half-marathon is absolutely more pleasant than fretting … Continue reading more adventures in running: dealing with anxiety and remembering my star wars motivations
Guys, I know that running is awful, but I super recommend training for a half-marathon. I'm pretty depressed and anxious right now, and my brain is very nearly drowning in worries about money, food, my job, whether or not we're moving to Pittsburgh, whether or not anyone can tell that my pants are falling off … Continue reading oh, snap. am i kind of in love with running?