so, i signed up for another half-marathon, or: on not apologizing for our bodies

Years ago, when I was just a wee Apprentice Company member of the theatre where I work, an Alexander technique teacher spent five minutes with me and then told me that I "walked like an apology." When she said it, the other baby apprentice in the room and I both immediately started to cry.  Recently, … Continue reading so, i signed up for another half-marathon, or: on not apologizing for our bodies

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for walt, for robin, for kermit, for me

I celebrate myself, and sing myself,  I don't hate myself today, and that is a big deal. Self-hatred is such a constant of my being that my therapist has to often remind me that it isn't a normal thing. Going back to bed after an hour of activity just because I can't deal with myself … Continue reading for walt, for robin, for kermit, for me

i am probably never going to win an oscar, or why i loved thor in endgame so much

When I was in grade school, my very sweet and wonderful and supportive teachers used to write things in my yearbook like: "I can't wait to see you onstage at the Oscars someday!" Which is a very kind thing to write in a theatre dork's yearbook. But I also kind of bought it, gang. I've … Continue reading i am probably never going to win an oscar, or why i loved thor in endgame so much

in which our intrepid heroine rambles on about theatre and running. again.

Good news, nerds! runDisney just published the Digital Event Guide for the Star Wars Rival Run Weekend. SOMETHING NEW TO MEMORIZE YAY. The fact that's the most deeply burned into my brain regarding logistics for the Sunday morning half marathon? The fact that runners are encouraged to be bright-eyed, bushy-tailed, and all-aboard official event transportation … Continue reading in which our intrepid heroine rambles on about theatre and running. again.

more adventures in running: dealing with anxiety and remembering my star wars motivations

We still don't know anything about my partner's grad school situation, and I'm living in a worry-bubble. If you know me in real life, you've probably noticed that I only ever talk about two things lately: worrying about grad school or training for my half-marathon. Obsessing over the half-marathon is absolutely more pleasant than fretting … Continue reading more adventures in running: dealing with anxiety and remembering my star wars motivations